I wish there was something I could do. Something I could say. But I’m awful with words unfortunately. You had a chance and blew it, second time you’ve made that mistake. I hate seeing you like this, so upset with yourself. You were always the happiest person I know, and even though I know it’s not my fault, deep down I still feel so guilty. But on the other hand I’m so happy with my life. If it was anybody else I’d just let you go, you’ll move on. But I can’t do that because your my bestfriend. And I love you, I really do. But only as a bestfriend, sorry. But every time I see you and your not smiling, and I know it’s me your so upset over. I can’t even write about this to let my emotions out (the only reason I blog lol) because words can’t describe how I feel. I miss you a lot. Too much. We had such great times together. But there’s nothing I can do. You have to sort this out for yourself. I told you I’m here for you, and I am. But all I can do is listen. Emotions, you can go fuck yourself.